I can't believe how fast last week went. It's already Monday which means before you know it it will be Thursday and then Sunday, which means that Danny leaves for school. I'm completely stressed out that he's leaving so soon. It seems like we should have another 2 weeks left together. It's really finally starting to settle in that he's leaving for 9 months. I'm so use to seeing him 3 or 4 times a week. And i'm use to him staying the night on Saturday and then spending all of Sunday with him. He's coming home the weekend of my birthday so I'll see him at the end of January. I'm not looking forward to the first week he's gone, because I've still got a whole week before i go back to school. At least on the day he leaves I'll have my family to keep me busy. It's the 2nd annual "game day at the looney bin" aka my aunt Lori's house in Warsaw. But the rest of the week i'll have to keep myself busy with play practice and find something else as well.

I'm gonna miss him. Only 6 days : (

Christmas Eve

Every year on Christmas Eve my dad's side of the family gets together at my grandparents house. This means my aunt Reg and my uncle Bob and their 3 kids Todd, Chad and Troy, my aunt Lori and uncle Bill and their son Eric and Bill's mom Fran, my parents and me and Danny, and of course my grandparents. A normal Christmas Eve involves meeting around 2 or 3 and playing games or just enjoying each others company. Then we do our "Christmas program", which usually involves reading the Christmas story from Luke and singing some Christmas songs. Then prayer and eating a wonderful meal. Recently we also started doing Bingo after we eat. After we eat we all draw on the table cloth that has been around at every Christmas. After drawing it's white elephant Bingo then the passing of the gifts. Opening them in this order, Eric, Troy, Me, Chad, Todd (all the "kids" go first opening one gift each time). Then it's the adults turn. Sometimes they go in order of youngest to oldest and others they just go in a line of who's sitting where. Then after gifts we sit for a while, then Reg and Bob leave to go to church and not long after we all leave as well.

That's a normal Christmas Eve in the Wise-Huff family. This year was different however. Most of us met at 3. Those of us that were there played a very quick game of pictionary until the Huff's arrived. Then Fran came and it was time to eat. We had the traditional Christmas Eve punch (my favorite punch ever made!) and drew on the table cloth as normal. But normally we do our "Christmas program" before we eat, well this year it was afterward. We went into the Living Room and Lori, Bill and Eric started the program. We sang and listened to the readings. Then we did something a little different.

In the center of the window sill were a big red candle and a bunch of little white tea light candles. Lori said they this was a time to reflect on memories and the past years. It started with Grandma and went from there. We laughed and we cried. We reminisced about past Christmas's and good times with family. And every time a memory was shared a tea light would be lit. It made me realize just how special my family truly is. I don't know of a closer more tightly knit family than ours. When I can say that my cousins are like my younger and older brothers that's amazing to me. I love my family so much they mean the world to me. And being able to look back and hear stories of Christmas's long ago and just fun times before was just an stupendous thing to do. After our look back we sang Joy to the World, Jingle Bells, The 12 days of Catmas, and last but not least We wish you a Merry Christmas. After this we took the annual "kids" Christmas picture. Then gifts.

Christmas Eve is such a special time in my family and I would not trade it for anything. On Christmas Day, each family does its own thing in the morning. Then in late afternoon we all gather at the Huff farm in Bremen for soup, treats and TONS of games.

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas!!

Finals Week

Finals week is one of the most stressful weeks any college student will face. For me i always dread finals. It means a sold 2 weeks at least of studying previously learned concepts and facts. My finals schedule was as follows: Monday-Spanish. Tuesday-Astronomy. Wednesday-supposedly nothing. Thursday-Geography on-line final. And finally Friday-Environmental Science. But that wasn't at all how it went.

Monday-Spanish final. Didn't happen. There was not enough snow that we couldn't get to school. Yet my teacher didn't show up. I spent all day Saturday and most of the day Sunday study for this final only to have it held off until Wednesday. One up side another 2 days to study. Down side it wasn't over!

Tuesday-Astronomy final. I spent all of Tuesday morning studying for this final. I'm not a big fan of the whole math thing. So when i got into the class and found out it was all physics i was completely bummed. Our professor made it clear at the beginning of the semester that if we didn't pass the lab portion of the class we would fail the class. I did exceptionally well on every single quiz and test, getting A's and B's on all. I wish i could say the same for the lab portion. I got D's and F's on quite a few of the labs..meaning unfortunately i failed the class. : ( No matter how well i did on the final (which i got a 185 out of 200 on) i still failed the class.

Wednesday-Spanish final day 2. We actually took the final on Wednesday, which i figured i would completely bomb because i could never conjugate the verbs. But i actually did really well and got a 70 out of 80 on it. Spanish grade...B.

Thursday-Geography. What can i say..even with the book in front of me i still completely tanked on this test getting a spectacular 51 out of 100.

Friday-Environmental Science final. This final is yet to be determined. Because of the ice/snow storm we are supposed to get i do not know what the out come of driving ability will be tomorrow morning.

As for finals week...i am ready to say bon voyage! At least until May of next year. I am ready for Christmas break..to spend time with my family. I am more than ready to spend as much time as possible with Danny over the next few weeks, as these are my last few weeks with him before he goes to Pennsylvania for 9 months. So say good-bye to finals and school for a while and spend some time with your family and loved ones.

lalalalalala

I'm so bored. I'm sitting in class and i'm falling asleep.
I hate this class. Astronomy is sooo boring.
School in general is just lame.
I'm so glad next week is thanksgiving break.
I need a whole week off of school.
School=yuck!!

grrrr...

I'm so aggravated!

I'm so annoyed!!

Idk things are just getting on my last nerve right now!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

beyond hurt...

So what does it mean when your boyfriend won't take you to his friends house. When there is going to be someone else's girlfriend there. Is he embarrassed by me or something. I understand the fact that my ex would be there but it's been 2 FREAKING YEARS AND HE NEEDS TO GET OVER IT!!!!!!!! He has a girlfriend! WHY AM I NOT ALLOWED TO HANG OUT WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND HIS FRIENDS IF HE'S THERE!!!?!?!?!!!! WHAT THE HELL KIND OF SENSE DOES THAT MAKE!!!!!!!!!!! I UNDERSTAND THAT DANNY IS TRYING TO BE "SYMPATHETIC" OR WHATEVER TO HIM, BUT IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET OVER IT!!!!!! I UNDERSTAND WHAT I DID WAS MEAN BUT MY GOD!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE COMPLETE CRAP!!!!!!!!! AFTER 2 YEARS YOU STILL CAN'T EVEN RUN INTO YOU WITHOUT IT BEING WEIRD! I DON'T EXPECT US TO BE "BEST FRIENDS" BUT I CAN'T GO ANYWHERE WITH DANNY THAT YOU MIGHT BE!! IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME!!! SO PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME HOW IT MAKES SENSE TO YOU!!!! I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH DANNY!! YOU SHOULD HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT. I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GO WHERE I PLEASE WITH HIM. AND YOU SHOULD HAVE NO SAY!!! YOU ARE CONTROLLING MY LIFE 2 YEARS AFTER WE'VE BROKEN UP!! IT'S NOT RIGHT!!!! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT!!!!


i'm sooooooo beyond hurt and pissed.

ugh...

It's like 1 in the morning and i can't sleep.

i'm freakin exhausted but i just cant sleep.

I have to be up in about 7 hours.


Lame....

..........

There's nothing i can say really. My neighbor didn't make it. It was a major upset in our neighborhood.


Prayers are needed.

WOW

So we just had a major thing happen on our tiny street. The man across the street John fell and things dont look good. We had the ambulance and fire trucks down here.


But things dont look good. prayers are needed.

Laptop!!!!

I FINALLY got a laptop. And i LOVE it!!!!

A lot happened over the weekend.

Thursday-I ordered my laptop, i could barely contain my excitement. I was jumping and bouncing off the walls!! It was supposed to be here on Monday and that felt like forever away! I was able to go pick up the router the next day. So i did.

Friday-I had class at 9 so i did that, then it was time to go to Mishawaka. I went to Circut City to pick up my router and that took all of 2 seconds!. Then when i got home, my mom said that we were going to get Verizon. FINALLY!!!!! So my mom and i went and got verizon. excitement #2!!!

Saturday-Nothing really exciting. I painted glass for the craft show all day. I was starting to not feel good. And i'm not real sure but i think it was all the excitement!

Sunday- This day was my 2 year anniversary with Danny (11-2-06)!! He came over around 1230 and brought me the prettiest roses, and he bought me 2 computer games for my new laptop. My grandparents came over at about 1 or so and they stayed for a while. Danny and i went and got Wendy's when they left. Then we came back and we watched Billy Madison. We kind of just hung out and had a good day together. We went out to eat at Olive Garden and we came back and we watched the Colts game.

Monday- I had class at 10 but I didn't feel good. Danny stayed the night and we played some Monopoly. But we both got frustrated and had to quit. And then around 1230 my laptop came!!!!!!! I set it up and Danny put the games on it that he bought me. And it didn't quite work so he got frustrated. We went and got Subway. Shortly after Danny left that was at like 330. : ( I pretty much played with my laptop all day and night long after that.

It was a lot to happen in a few days. All the excitement literally made me sick. I couldn't stand it!!

Today i went over to Jake's to hang out with him and Shannon. Jake was in pain from his surgery yesterday, but he seemed to be doing pretty good. Before i went over there i stopped and bought him some Blue juice cuz he was out. Jake loves him some blue juice!!! I even went to his appointment with his mom and Shannon. He came home and slept. i left while i was sleeping.

Right now, it's time for me to get ready to go to work.. LAME!!! I hate work. But i have to go.

what a waste...

Today was pretty much wasted.

I had class.....for about an hour.

Came home did very little, waited for Danny.

Drove around for about 3 hours.

sat.

got pissed off.

got left freakin starving

waited FOREVER!!!!!!!

what a wasted day

Bad mood.

I'm really just in a crappy mood today. I just want to be left alone, yet i want to hang out with someone. I'm so conflicted right now.

Today i went to church at Encore, yep the movie theater. It's a new thing Granger Community Church is doing. The whole service was about the question why?. Why does this happen, why does that happen. And it was almost the perfect service for my mom to be at. She keeps asking why stuff keeps happening with her jobs. My answer was because God has a purpose for her somewhere, that she just hasn't found yet. Sometimes I wonder where that is, and i know she wonders where that is, but God will let her know in his own time.

Somehow just writing that paragraph above made me feel a little bit better. I don't know, today has been weird, and cold!

I'm going to go draw more.

Peace!

A trip to the Grocery Store

I wanted to make a Fruit and Walnut pasta salad. So Danny and I went to Martins to pick up some ingredients, like apples and peaches, grapes, pasta, walnuts, orange juice and of course some other sweet treats. As we walked through the meat department and the past the drink isle, i realized how natural it felt to be shopping with him. I mean we've gone shopping together before, but it was usually just for 1 or 2 things. This was like a 10 item trip. We walked looking for our items while Danny held the basket and i held his hand, or i found what i needed. We had a pleasant conversation, not sure what exactly it was about, but it was good. I guess what i'm saying is, it felt so right shopping for groceries with him. It was like we'd done it every day for the last 2 years.

Tonight was a good night. No fights, just little spats that lasted about 2 seconds. Tonight was almost perfect. I love him.

This turned out to be a perfect trip to the grocery store.

Just a little..

So i'm just a little bit stressed. School, personal life, work.

Astronomy is killing me! I still don't understand what i'm doing exactly. Thank God for Danny.
Spanish is pretty easy (I need at least 1 easy class).
Geography is better now that i actually have a book.
Enviro. best class.

No time for bff's or barely any for Danny.

I finally got more hours at work but it cuts into the time i have to study and do homework a lot! Maybe i'll have to cut back a day.

School makes life hard.

Blech!

Last night

Yesterday during the day was ok. I was kinda bored. I've decided to start reading classic books. I just finished reading 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea, and i'm in love with that book. It for one thing made me realize that I want to be doing something with the Environment for a career. And it was also a nice change from the writing now. I could read the book without seeing all the typo's and all that grammatical stuff. And now i'm reading Through the Looking Glass, and Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. Just book number 2 on my list of about 30.

Anyways, last night was a good night. Danny called and asked if i wanted to meet him for dinner at Olive Garden. And of course i said yes. He got off work and called me again and said he wanted to go T.G.I.F's. So that's where we went. He got mini BBQ sliders and I got a chicken jalapeno sandwich. It was so good. Then we went and walked around the mall for a little bit. Then sat in my car and talked for a while. I feel bad because I kept him late, when he had to get up this morning and work at 730-630. I'd say that overall it was definitely a good night.

Today I had class at 9. Not bad. Then some homework ( maybe), and some reading. I don't know what I'm gonna do later. But for now i'm just going to go chill.

Lata!

school

Now i have to go into Ivy Tech so i can get my 2 books that i should have had like 4 weeks ago. But the bookstore is SO stupid that they can't give me my money so i can go buy books or anything! I'm so frustrated with the Financial aid dept there that it just makes me want to scream!!!!!!!

Hopefully all will go well and i will be able to get my books. Wish me luck!!!

Random thoughts

So lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. I've not been thinking about anything specific, just basically everything. I realized that most of the time when I'm at home i'm in my room, and that's because i want to be alone. I like my freedom. So I've been thinking a lot about going away to school or getting an apartment, something along those lines. Funny thing is the school i would probably end up going to (St. Joe) is the one that my 18 year-old cousin goes to. They have the program i want and move areas of it than anywhere else, and it's far enough but close enough to home. My other option would be going to a school in Winona (Grace). That's close to my aunt and uncle and cousin. And it's closer to home. I looked at a school that is only 30 minutes away from Danny, but out of state college fees are RIDICULOUS!

Danny says he would not mind moving into an apartment with me, but he doesn't want to feel bad ditching out on me in about 3 months when he goes to school in PA. And i only have one friend that would want to move out like ASAP, but that would be really awkward, so that's not an option. I mean i guess i can wait another like 12 months. If Danny still wants to do that when he gets back from school that will be awesome. If i haven't already done it by then myself.

School this year has SUCKED! I hate all but one of my classes. And i don't even know what to take next semester because they don't have anything further in Environmental science. I've been completely stressed out by school. the financial aid office at school is NO help at all, so i can't get 2 of the books i need. I need to get a laptop for 2 of my classes and i can't do that either until i get my school money. I don't understand astronomy and i can barely do anything for my geography class because i need the book. Just thinking about it makes me stress out.

For right now i'm going to just let things happen the way they are supposed to happen. I have Spanish class in the morning so i'm going to sleep..

Peace!

IDK

IDK what i did wrong. I did the same thing over and over again like 50 times and it still told me it was wrong!

IDK why he doesn't wanna talk to me. But i'm not happy.

IDK what i said wrong.

IDK why i even bother, it's not like i'm gonna accomplish anything.

IDK why days have to start out good and then get crappy. That's just wrong.

IDK today is just turning out to be horrible.

Screw today!

Today..

Today is pretty much lame!

I stayed at Shannon's last night which was a blast! But today is just kinda blech. My left ear hurts from sleeping on it. And i REALLY don't want to take the time to sit down and do my astronomy homework, even though i know i need to.

Blueberry Festival is this weekend. I'm excited. The last fireworks i went to were pretty lame, so these better be amazing! One good thing about the last fireworks, was that Shannon and I got a great pick with my dad!


As far as right now goes, i think i'm going to go be crafty and do something with a craft.

Maybe tonight will be better.

Early

It's 12:51 a.m I'm sitting at Shannon's house. We started our blog together and it reminded me to start one of my own.

Today was good. Tomorrow who knows. I do know that i can no longer put off my Astronomy homework! It has to be done. so tomorrow unfortunately that's what i will be doing.

Now it's time for me to sleep.