Beautiful House On the Rock Resort.

This is a picture of the view from my room.

So right at this moment my parents and I are sitting in rooms at the House on the Rock Resort in Spring Green, WI. I have my own room since I got to the room first. We have a balcony, a whirlpool tub, 2 TVs, and a kitchenette. We just had an AMAZING dinner at the Grandview restaurant. My mom and I had Cajun chicken and my dad had Lemon peppered chicken. So good!! My parents and I were the only ones in the place, until a wedding reception came in. They have a fitness center that is open 24 hours and a pool that is open from 7am to 11pm. We're getting ready to head down to the pool, i'm going to the fitness center, then the pool.

Tomorrow is breakfast in downtown Spring Green then off to the House on the Rock for an ultimate tour! The last time I was here was sophomore year of high school. They have changed it around and added new attractions so I am excited to see what it's like now!

Some people might consider it a wast to drive 5 hours to get here just for 24 hours, but it is so worth it if you see the house on the rock and stay at this resort!

Oh funny story. As we were coming up to the resort there was a fork in the road and my mom said to take the right fork, even though the sign clearly said to take the left one. So we took the right one and ended up WAY up the top of this HUGE hill!! But it was so beautiful from the top of it. We were winding and twisting on the road. There were houses up there on the sides of the hill, and their drive-ways were almost straight up and down. I don't know how people do it.

So i'm going to go enjoy the 2 hot tubs and the 2 pools, along with the 24 hr fitness center. YAY!!!

7 days!!!!!!

I'm soooo excited!!!!!


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I've been very bummed out today. I'm not sure exactly why. But it's really starting to catch up with me right now. I feel like I need to keep moving. If I stop my mind starts going crazy and I start thinking and I don't want to think about things. If I think about things I get sad and I just want to sit and do nothing.

I wish I could talk to someone who understood what I was thinking about. But that doesn't happen like I want. I feel that events in my life keep repeating themselves, not all of them but some of the more unpleasant ones.

However I am looking forward to the next 2 weekends. This next weekend my parents and I are going to the House on the Rock in Spring Green, Wisconsin. The last time I was there was I believe sophomore year. I just think I need to get out of Elkhart for few days. We will only be gone Sat and Sun, but that's good enough for me.

The week after that is my play as well as my birthday AND Danny comes home!!!! I can't wait to see him!!! Best birthday present ever! I miss him so much and I'm ready for him to come home, I want to see him so bad! There's part of my bummed out mood.

Well I guess I have something to look forward to for the next 2 weeks.

18 days!!! I miss him!

For the first few days of this week I was doing really good. I was happy and I was keeping myself occupied. But now as the week goes by i'm getting sadder and more depressed. I was keeping myself busy. I was cleaning my room and rearranging it but now I'm getting tired of cleaning and rearranging. I still have stuff I want to do and things that I need to get done, but I just can't get myself motivated. I don't know. I worry too much. I need something to get me out of the house and away for a while, I'm going a little crazy. School starts next week but I only have class on Wednesday. At least that will get me out for a while. Then of course rehearsal at 7 almost every night. But maybe when I start painting it won't be so bad. Man that's going to suck doing it alone!!! And I can't tape for crap..oh well, it doesn't have to be perfect.

I have to see about getting books for class tomorrow. I can almost guarantee that I will have to have my Art History book for my first on-line class on Monday. No big deal..hopefully.

Ok now it's time to sleep!!

Ok.

So Danny is off at school and it hasn't even been a week and I want him to come home. But I'm trying to keep myself busy. This week I have play practice tomorrow and Thursday. I work on Saturday morning. And I am rearranging and freshening up my room. Taking the dresser I don't use out and putting a desk in. Moving my fridge. Getting rid of a crappy cardboard 3 drawer storage thing and replacing it with an awesome unit I bought at Michael's. I want more of these things so I can do my whole wall. Also I'm using the shelf I used for the craft show and cutting off the over hang on the sides and the tops and bottoms and making cubby holes, and hanging it on my wall above my desk. I'm also going to paint darker teal checkers on my walls as a border. I'm so excited to be making my room better for me.

I have also been trying to watch what I eat. I realized that I was drinking at least 3 sodas a day which is WAY too much. And I was just eating a bunch of junk that I shouldn't be eating. So today was my first day of healthy eating. I had a very good bowl of cereal which consisted of corn flakes (not sweetened), oat clusters, blueberries, strawberries and raspberries. YUM! Then I had a glass of V8 Fruit Fusion. I had a nice lunch that was pasta and a salad and then tortilla soup and bread for dinner. I had a nice sweet treat of chocolate tonight. And it felt really good to be healthy and to eat good. I'm looking forward to continuting to eat good.

Not Good...

Today sucked!! Here's a recap:

Well starting with last night..
Last night I went and stayed the night at Danny's house. I was really sad and i just wanted to cuddle with Danny. We went and laid down and Danny soon fell asleep. Me on the other hand, I only got about 2 hours of sleep. I was really upset about Danny leaving.

Today:
Danny and I had planned on waking up and packing his car and then coming back to my house about 1, then I would just leave from here and go meet my family in Warsaw. Since i didn't sleep well I didn't feel good. I wanted to spend time with him but i wanted to come home too. So he just brought me home.

I had to say bye to him here before we left. I haven't cried that hard in so long. I can't believe he's gone. He's not even there yet and I want him back! I know it's going to be good for him going to school and all but does it have to be so far away? God i miss him!!!! I want him home!!! 9 months so long!!!! I'm already so lonely. We didn't get enough time together before he had to go. He comes home in 27 days...we've never not seen each other for that long. Then he doesn't come home until March then not again until June. Such a long time.

I miss him so much.

I love him so much.

Ugh.

3 days...that's it!!!! That's all we've got left until he goes to school. So soon!!! I got New Year's with him and New year' day (ice skating YAY!!!!!) then possibly dinner at his sisters house. Then friday play practice at 7...then saturday work at 1045 then possibly going to Buchanon. Then sunday down to Winona for family game day. Such a short time until he leaves. I can't believe it.

One a positive note.. New Year's Eve at Jake's house!! Freakin sweet!!! Food, sparkling grape juice, guitar playing, sequence and a couple rousing games of Taboo!!

Happy 2009!!!